Now they changed them so if I update one i need a pin...and anything I have made with that pin updates..so it doesn't keep a different one each week for me now!  What a piss off.  I guess any tickers I make now will have to be "most recent" and they will change everything!  I even tried making new ones, a new pin, deleting my cookies etc.  Oh well....I liked it while it worked!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I lost 2.4 which makes 120. In the meeting my leader asked me ifI ate the points and I confessed that I hadn't eaten all of them, but that I had eaten more than before. I was kinda teary saying how frustrating my week was cause I feel like I have to pig out to eat the points.  She told me that WW knows what they are talking about and that I can do it and she will help me.  It was funny cause she was about to move on after and she hadn't asked me my total loss and I said Judy I hit my 120 today and I want my damn ribbon..it had the whole group roaring.  I wasn't going to share except I wanted my stickers for my bookmark.  Oh yes we recieved a bookmark with our week 2 pamplet.  
Anyway after the meeting she gaveme a bit of heck for following the "3rd plan"  which is my own.  WW only has the flex and core plan.  She first made sure I was getting in all my good health guidelines and I am, and then she again reminded me that ww really knows what they are doing and asked me to go back to when I started the program, what was i doing to get the points in?  (The only problem is even back then with all flex points I would still have 35 more points.)

The biggest thing she said though was stop thinking about it and worrying about it.  I am overthinking it. I know I am, you guys have totally seen that.  Even though I still think my points are valid, I really want to follow the program well.  I am going to give it another shot, but don't be surprised if I am just as frustrated in a few days.  I am going to try to be more positive though.

Thanks for all the advice guys.  I have had all week to really think about the points and the increase and I have come to a couple conclusions and kept rolling over a few points.

 

1. 10 points is a lot of food.  Even when I attempted to eat the points I felt like I was overating, like I had to stuff myself to get them in. I really did not like that feeling.  People keep saying, oh drink a glass of milk.  Ok well I got my dairy in today already, and 10 points is 5 glasses(cups) of skim milk.  So hey drink a BAG of milk extra in a day and you won't lose it will be fine.  I could eat 5 bananas, 10 apples, 3 chicken breasts, a 500 ml container of haagen daas sorbet, 5 cadbury thins...the list goes on.  Remember I had a hard time meeting my 34 points originally!  I still do sometimes!  This is just too much food.  Whether is is junk or eating extra fruit or vegetables or protein, its still an extra 3500 calories a week.

2. If I had started the program at the 44 points it would have been ideal, and I think the points calculation would be more appropriate for someone with a similar start weight, and I am glad they are starting to take into consideration those with more than 50 lbs to lose.

3. When I called the 1-800 number for ww the lady said eat the points, and if you gain then we can reduce the points, but track diligently and talk to your leader.  The message I got from this is that they are ok with me gaining one week (or more until I get the right points level).  They assume I am ok with gaining to prove their program.  I am NOT.  I work hard for my losses and I still have 240 lbs to lose!  I have not lost too fast, I have stayed consistant with the 1% ratio. 

4.  I have spent 8 months training my body and getting my balance right.  I have recieved feedback from my body and I know when I have pushed the limit in terms of points.  I always eat my 34 points and I aim to only use 10 flex a week but if I go over a bit I can push it to about 15 and still have a loss.  Any more and I better have been really active that week.  Why should I mess with something that has been working for me?

 

5.  People do not realize the impract the numbers have for me.  Imagine you were me.  You are eating your current points of 34, with about 14 flex a week, thats 2 extra points a day if you average it out.   So I basically lose on 36 points a day.  Now they are saying eat 8 more points than that, and thats your daily allowance.  That is 3500 extra points a week if you are thinking about the additional 10 or 2800 a week if you are just thinking about the additional points over what I eat. 3500 calories is the amount of calories it takes to gain or lose a pound.  How can I NOT gain?  Also then I have no flexibility because using my flex would be like saying...why am I at WW?  I don't care if I lose lets pig out!  It is also like saying here, eat your points and all your flex, and here is an extra set of flex points for the week.  Could you eat all your flex and another set of flex for your daily allowance?  Oh and remember there would actually be a real set of flex on top of that.

 

6.  I tried eating my new points level.  In two days I was up probably 3-4 lbs and I decided that the change wasn't worth it and that I would only eat 34 points from now on.  I have personal goals to achieve!  I promised myself I would not gain through december!  I want to hit 150lbs down as my next big goal, and I have set an ambitious goal of my birthday to do so.  I cannot afford to play around with the program right now. 

 

7.  I am not paying WW to gain weight!

 

8.  This is the first week I have felt bad about the program.  I have it's the biggest supporter, but I don't think the research takes into account people like myself, the program never really made allowances for someone with a higher start weight, ex. all their sliding scales end at 350.  We are the people who need it the most!  This is my life on the line and I know that sounds dramatic but I made the decision not to give up and die a fat person.  I feel like another 10 points is almost like ww is sabotaging me.  I know it sounds paranoid and such but this point increase is not going to work for me and I made the decision to not change points.  Maybe I will reconsider later but right now, no.

 

I hope I am down tonight, I am just showing maybe at most a lb under on my scale right now. 

 

 

 

 

Well I was down 5.2 and I am happy, it was the first stickers I had gotten in some time, since I reached my 100 lbs on Nov 7th.  I spoke about the WW site and about how I really live and breathe WW.  I just want to keep losing!  I have a big goal in mind and I need to really get into a better habit with the activity!  I know this, I wish I could stay on track with that cause its hard to start again when I get out of it.  Anyway, I noticed a fellow WW'r put a link to my blog on her site.  I love this idea and have a bunch of blogs I like.  I thinks it's neat that I can see the referring site on the page stats so I knwo when people have been viewing me from there.  I have over 3800 views this year and I started the program in april.  God I love WW!